Anger

Anger among perceived negative energies can in fact be transmuted into healthy forms of energy.

People disappoint me all the time.

I try to play the long game, by giving in relentlessly, instead of demanding an immediate interest or benefit.

Humans, including myself, are selfish by nature.

Anger is a physiological response that reminds me that my boundaries have been trespassed.

I tend to act on it by avoiding it, simply by ghosting someone, and

channelling this energy into the fuel to

achieve my goals

to invoke envy in the people who walked out on me, betrayed me, took advantage of me.

what is my coping mechanism?

i work, until i’m too drowsy to give a damn.

i work, until i’m too tired to throw a tantrum.

i work, until i’m numbed of my feelings.

i work, until one day they’ll see me at the top.

Moving in silence,

My success will make the noise.

My success will speak for me.

My success will right my wrong.

dear J,

Why did you approach me in the first place if this isnt a good time?

Had I known you’d walk out on me, I never would have started this

Now I feel taken advantaged of

for which i have no remedy

it is unfair to me

For you to run me like a free trial

and i have all the cards on hand

i could expose you but

only a fool folds a winning hand

because i am that fool

only fools rush in

but i cant help falling in love with you.