People: Seasons

People come and go. They either heal or break us. We cross paths to fulfil a purpose. When that purpose is fulfilled, they leave. If they break us, then a lesson is learnt in the process. People are seasons. They aren’t meant to last forever. Just like summer, fall, winter, and spring don’t last forever. They come and go. Have you ever seen what happens to stagnant water? Water stagnation – Wikipedia It is very dangerous and can be considered a hazard. I believe that people should allow their water to never become stagnant. They should try their best to grow. I don’t want to keep anyone from being the best possible human. I don’t want people to hang around me and limit themselves if they know that they should be somewhere else fulfilling their spiritual goals. I’ve seen what happens when someone settles. It’s not pretty. I know too many people that allowed themselves to become stagnant due to someone else. I constantly want the best for people. It’s not necessary for them to remain in my presence. I know that their spiritual purpose is way bigger than me.

Anger

Anger among perceived negative energies can in fact be transmuted into healthy forms of energy.

People disappoint me all the time.

I try to play the long game, by giving in relentlessly, instead of demanding an immediate interest or benefit.

Humans, including myself, are selfish by nature.

Anger is a physiological response that reminds me that my boundaries have been trespassed.

I tend to act on it by avoiding it, simply by ghosting someone, and

channelling this energy into the fuel to

achieve my goals

to invoke envy in the people who walked out on me, betrayed me, took advantage of me.

what is my coping mechanism?

i work, until i’m too drowsy to give a damn.

i work, until i’m too tired to throw a tantrum.

i work, until i’m numbed of my feelings.

i work, until one day they’ll see me at the top.

Moving in silence,

My success will make the noise.

My success will speak for me.

My success will right my wrong.

dear J,

Why did you approach me in the first place if this isnt a good time?

Had I known you’d walk out on me, I never would have started this

Now I feel taken advantaged of

for which i have no remedy

it is unfair to me

For you to run me like a free trial

and i have all the cards on hand

i could expose you but

only a fool folds a winning hand

because i am that fool

only fools rush in

but i cant help falling in love with you.

Turning 20

Since I was born on a universal new year, I always felt that God destined me for a purpose far bigger and greater than myself. People often tell me how lucky I am to be born on auspicious day. On the contrary, I feel the opposite. My birthday reminds me how small, insignificant I am relative to the macrocosm of this world. Although new year is a festive and loud occasion, I dedicate it to personal and quiet time with my creator. A time when I rebirth like a phoenix rising from the ashes; like the firework that shoots up into the sky, before I return to dust.

immersing in nature
mindful meditation
emphathising with others,
who may be suffering more than me

makes me conscious about smallness
realise how irrelevant my day-to-day,
petty concerns are

purify

Cleanse me, O God.
From this hideous sin worse than any disease. For it is better for a man to lose his arm than his whole body to burn in hell. What was meant as evil to me – you used it for good. From this moment onwards, I make my body the sacred temple of Your Holy Spirit. Just as fire tests gold, so is a man’s character refined by tribulation. You purified me through the flames.

Nightmare of nostalgia

In the night hour, I will wait for you

I cant sleep as thoughts devour

Thoughts of you , consume me

I cant help but

love you, even though I tried not to

I can’t help but be wrong in the dark

because I’m overcome by this War of Hearts

and the cards you hold,

win this war.

In this season of Spades,

Autumn signals the maturity of a spade-shaped brown leaf,

I recall and celebrate your victory,

of which is my loss.

how to be a successful gangster

What can we learn from criminals? John Wick’s universe is one where killers abide by a code of honor, share unspoken connections and hint at mysterious pasts, where violence is not only sanctioned but the only righteous course of action. While I personally do not endorse violence and death, I strongly believe that criminal behavior are sometimes an extension, or extrapolation of the otherwise good qualities that an average person could capitalise upon.

The assassins of John Wick are sophisticated, sensible, polite. Everyone dresses impeccably. They can relax at a secret speakeasy in the underbelly of the Continental. To pay for accommodation at the hotel, they use gold coins, which are like credit cards, a membership card, I.D., and currency all in one — a coin gains entry into the speakeasy, medical care, body disposal, and more.  Does this not resemble running a business in our age of creative entrepreneurship?

“It’s an honor to fight with you, Mr. Wick.” This was uttered by John Wick’s assassins – an irony in itself that they are more interested in sparring with him rather than killing him for the bounty reward. Unsurprisingly, we humans are naturally competitive, as evidenced in the fight over a slice of pizza or in the ring.

Recent research suggests that there are a group of personality traits, known as “the dark triad”, which link those with the greatest business success to those involved in the most calculated criminality.

  1. Narcissism – self-admiration
  2. Psychopathy – obsessiveness
  3. Machiavellianism – the ends justify the means

All of the above can be toned down to confidence, passion and a goal-oriented personality trait respectively.